i hate this kind of feeling.
feeling so weak.
i guess i'm fortunate that it's holidays during this time of the year.
can't sleep well.
can't eat well.
can't even walk well.
don't feel like doing anything...
don't know what do i want to do either.
feels so contradicting to want someone with me, yet don't want anyone to see how...i am.
this hasn't happened for so long that i've forgotten how it is to be in this pathetic state.
how my limbs would tremble if i overexert myself.
how sleep would evade me when i close my eyes.
this dumb, pathetic state.
i hate it.
perhaps.