Ironically, i found renewed strength after reading Ouran. idk much, but something about Tamaki appeals to me. perhaps it's the way he deals with trauma. (he never fails to surprise me on this one)
in a warped sense, i feel that i could somewhat relate to tamaki. being away from someone you love, being unable to see the person and all this time, praying that the person will be fine.
and then living life as per normal because deep down, that person hopes so.
just that i don't have enough strength to really execute the last one, huh.
it's just a pathetic smile, but if it eases his mind, then it's a successful one.