actually i'm kinda sad now.
and i just deleted lots of people from xiaoting account.
perhaps it's the adrenaline.
or perhaps i don't want people whom i know to really see my sad side even though they might not even know about it.
i really don't wanna move.
and seeing the house so empty...
it just hurts.
when ah gong and ah ma hasn't moved, the house was very noisy.
full of squabbles.
now that they've moved and we regain our long-lost freedom,
we gotta lose our house...
i really feel like crying.
but somehow i just can't...
and moving house totally sucks.
i think i'm breaking my spine if i'm moving any more things.
i hate it.
why can't we just be like birds?
just set up another nest, no luggage, no feelings attached.
and when birds migrate, they don't even have to register.
and line up.
and register.
and line up...
it's going twelve now.
i'm sleepy.
but i just don't wanna sleep.
it's my last night in here.
and it's not some stupid camp where i've stayed for 2, 3 days.
i've stayed here for 6 years.
and i know, i'll miss it here.
the spacious car park
the group of ah pek playing chess at ground level and peeing at the stairs
the birds' gathering at the smelly kallang river
the cats sneaking up and into our house
the huge dogs wandering around like security guards-cum-cameras
the rats playing hide-and-seek in the drains
the huge carpet of mimosa
...
and heh, i've got only ten fingers
and i broke almost 7 nails.
only.
i think my health just deteriorated.
i heard noel's having difficulties breathing and HQ having sore throat.
so now i wonder, it is just me, or is it the environment?
because those giddy spells, weak nails are all coming back.
hmph.
i don't really care about the giddy spells and weak stomach.
lived with them for as long as i can remember.
but i hate the weak nails.
they just split the moment i cut them.
and this pisses me off.
